Monday, April 20, 2009

One more sad song

04.00 AM, Falköping, Sweden

"Dear diary."

So the weekend has been mostly acceptable. Got drunk, as planned, went out with some friends, won a lot of cash, spent it all on alcohol, found a girl, danced with her all night, went home, fell asleep, woke up, felt the hangover come rushing and that's pretty much it. Now, I'm sitting here in the dark, listening to The All-American Rejects, and one particular song has been on repeat for the last three hours. "It Ends Tonight", another one of thos emo-ish songs that seem to get easily stuck on my mind. The lyrics are so intense;

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight

And once again, it feels like I'm living the music. I've been spending the night writing some poetry, in Swedish this time around, so I won't post it here. But if you feel like you really need to read it, I posted it on my account at, my profile name is "iNTENSITY". So as I said, the night has been creative. I've done a lot of thinking, as always during these lonely nights, and even though my mind is bursting from the constant stream of thoughts running through, I feel like I'm in more control now than I've been able to feel the last few weeks. I know that state of mind doesn't stay long, so I'm trying to make the best out of it. I've got no plans for the weekend right now, I'll just try and find something to do while waiting for a response from my unemplyoment fund, which should arrive this week. So with nothing else to report, I wish you a good night. You'll hear from me soon again.


  1. Aw tack Sid!
    men frågan är ju om det skulle vara bättre än det här röda? gha varför är det så svårt att bestämma sig? Hur är det med dig annars idag?

  2. Det röda är jättefint ju, men du hade passat lika bra i brunt tror jag ^^

    Jodå, jag lever tror jag, har inte känt efter så noga. Själv? :)